Wow this week was super hectic. I'm just gonna come right out and say it was not a very good week. Started out good. Monday, pathetically, was the best part, even though Mondays usually suck. But everything just kind of went downhill from there.
Today was good though.

This week's song: Lost in the Post by The Wombats

( Lyrics! )

So. One of the main reasons I listened to this song is that it's extremely upbeat and helped (kind of) wake me up in the mornings. This week was one where it was really hard to just get going and be motivated to do things. I don't know what came over me, or really if it's just one of those hard weeks in school, I just had a rough time of it.
I will admit that I'm not exactly sure what this song is about. I like to think that he liked a girl more than she liked him, and eventually when she wouldn't see him he started sending her love letters through snail mail. But maybe she just never responded. Or there was a terrible coincidence in making sure they never got to her. Either way, he loved the idea of tangible communication in the era of electronic correspondence. But she didn't appreciate that kind of commitment.
So his love was lost in the mail, both metaphorically and literally.
Maybe I like this idea that someone would be so committed to me that they would keep sending letters, even if I didn't respond. They would keep trying to contact me no matter what until I gave them a concrete answer.

Hey El-Jay.

Firstly, sorry I missed my MVM for Friday. I made a commitment but I might have to change the day that commitment happens because I don't know if Friday is going to work after all. :/ But here we go anyway.

Week four can be found here.

So, I listened a lot to 'Stronger Than Jesus' this week. If you would like to see my analysis of that song, I point you to the link above, as it was my most listened to song last week, too. I think I'll just go down my list of most listened to tracks on last.fm until I find another one to talk about.

So this week's will be, with 9 plays, for an average of 1.3 plays per day, is:
First Love by Emmy the Great

( Lyrics )

Regret. Obviously. Regret, hope, lust, and any other words you can think of to describe the first time you fell in love. The first time you really opened yourself up to someone, because you thought something might come of it. I will honestly say I can pinpoint first love, and it was the most vulnerable I had felt in my entire life. Yet, like the singer of this song, I would go back in a heartbeat, and maybe try to do it over. Maybe try to prolong that feeling even more, because I know at the end of first love, I got my heart broken. I grew up a little bit, became a little bit less of a child.
So I think I listened to this song a lot in the last week because, of course, I'm still thinking lots about relationships. I've tried to tell myself in the past that thinking about them won't help any, but of course I still do. I remember all my failed attempts and experiences of watching people succeed and fail in their own relationship efforts, some flaunting how easy it is for them and others falling into it by chance, some fucking it up gloriously and some managing to hold on for dear life and somehow make it through the storm that is making up with someone.
Truth be told, I don't know what I would do with a significant other if I had one. I have never had a specific experience like the singer of this song but I know the feeling of wanting to go back to something because it's the best you've had so far. Through all of the relationships I have had and currently had, it's very hard to compare to that first feeling I got of true love. That feeling that you will sacrifice things for someone just so they can be happier, even if it means not being happier with you.

Week three can be found here.

So there is an interesting turn of events this week.
My most listened to track is an instrumental track with no lyrics! This is most likely because I have taken to listening to instrumental music rather than music with lyrics while I'm studying. If you are wondering, the track is El Zopilote Mojado, by DevotchKa. If you would like to to hear (and I would recommend you do), drop me your email address and I'll send it.
My second most listened to track, with 19 plays for an average of 2.7 plays per day, is

Stronger Than Jesus - A Camp

Who told you love is the Alfa and Omega?
And that your heart will lead you to the only one?
It’s a curse, it’s the hammer that will break you,
It’s a poison hidden in a bon bon

Don’t you know love is stronger than Jesus?
Don’t you know love can kill anyone?
Bring it on; wars and diseases
You know that love can do you like a shotgun

Can’t resist them, the sailors and the soldiers
Taking aim, a rabbit on a rifle range
Pay no mind to what your mama told you
You’re the fool who’s chasing down the candy cane

it’s a riddle how lovers can stay alive
but we bloom and breathe and multiply

Don’t you know love is stronger than Jesus?
Don’t you know love can kill anyone?
So bring it on; wars and diseases
You know that love can do you like a shotgun

o, oh no
o, oh no

See the people heading for disaster
standing in line just looking for a little fun
love is a fire, a hot hot blaster
with a vengeance burning in the Kongo sun

We’ll believe there’s trust in strangers
any monkey looking like a saviour
It’s a riddle how
we’re still living now
Oh, how little we know, oh

Don’t you know love is stronger than Jesus?
Don’t you know love can kill anyone?
so bring it on; wars and diseases
You know that love can do you like a shotgun




So the first time I heard this song, it really grabbed me. First of all, the phrase "stronger than Jesus" is a real mind-blower, even if you're not Christian, because Christ is built up to be this all-powerful super being, so anything stronger than that is crazy. Though I think this is more in reference to the fact that the feeling of love is stronger than the idea of Christianity, or morals even. Love is probably one of the strongest, basest, most primal things that human beings can feel.

The entire song is basically telling you that while love is a wonderful thing, love kills. People do kill for love (Shakespeare), people die for love (Shakespeare, old couples), people will do anything in the name of love. This song especially makes me think of unrequited love, in that if you love someone and they don't love you back, what do you do? Sometimes that feeling is almost like you're going to die, even though, logically, you know you can get up and keep going, even though it doesn't feel like it.

I would say ... that I listened to this song a lot this week especially because I'm thinking about a certain someone a lot. Since this is one of my public entries, I won't elaborate on the extreme off chance he could be reading. If you want to see more analysis on that front, you'll have to add me as your friend!

This also makes me think of all the times I've been rejected, as sad as that sounds. Love is an extremely hard thing to get right.